I'm still alone even though I love 8 women over the past 11 years

I went to alcohol to get drunk, to forget all the people I used to be with, to love and be happy with.

I am 31 years old, not married yet. When I was 18, I fell in love with the South Vietnamese girl. The two of them used to eat and sleep together. People break up because of my work or have to travel far.

When I was 22 years old, I met a girl from Tuyen Quang, over 15 years old, going over the limit after 2 weeks of acquaintance. We were together for 3 days in a row, and on the morning of the fourth day, we hugged and cried under the Tuyen Quang city bus station, until now I can't see her again.

When I was 23, I fell in love with a girl from Nam Dinh, who had been together for more than 3 years, had unwanted children. She broke up with me and went to get someone else. I know my job is often away, at home she falls in love with someone whom she will later marry.

At 26, I knew a sister from Vinh Phuc, 15 years older than me. Her husband paired, beaten, disdain, cursed at her. She often told me stories, then feelings arise, we spend a year together, morning and noon free time to invite each other to the hotel. She and I broke up when her husband knew. She said she wanted to stop and could not continue because her second wife was often ill, she needed to have good health to take care of her children.

27 years old, I met a girl who left her husband and loved each other for 3 months. We belonged to each other but then we broke up. 3 months later, I met her 7 years older than her, she adultery with me and then did not go anywhere.

28 years old, I met a sister of Hanoi, over 6 years old, leaving her husband. My sister and I all went to Singapore for 3 days and 2 nights, I slept and went out very comfortably, and whoever went there.

29 years old, during the time I was away from work, I knew a sister of more than 8 years old, had just divorced after 6 months, near my home. We date, love and interact with each other up to now. Recently, I saw that she wanted to go back to her husband and break up with me. I am very sad, depressed.

I, a normal person, normal job, good physiology, good psychology, galang and very loving, pampering the person I love, but why is love who breaks up, then I'm the saddest person, lovesick and love most. Is my number miserable?